Time was suddenly passing slow, the train was suddenly moving slow … I was so anxious to grab my parcel at Singapore Post HQ earlier. Before that, I had my last chance to make my identity card at ICA (at Lavender). The first number I picked was 282 … but I missed the queue so I grabbed another number: 321. As I expected, I met Ryan there but he had a number before mine, yet I finished my registration before him.
After all these pesky procedures, I can finally dash down to SPHQ to grab my presents sent by my foster family in Japan. Man, I loved those presents so much~ I have always longed for a Japan Import CD and there it was … and that photo frame, I just find it unique and stands out from so many photoframes I’ve receieved over the years.
It isn’t the cost of the presents that makes me like them so much, but it’s the sentimental values. For somebody who’s not by your side and stills remember you, would take some time off to buy presents for you, would not mind that distance that keeps us apart … that’s the kind of values I’m talking about.
So it’s a Koda Kumi’s BEST ~second session~ CD and a photoframe with 3 postcards/greeting cards. I really appreciate it … words are simply not enough to tell how grateful and happy I am when I open this sweet delightful present. I really wish to see them again … and that’s one of my two birthday wishes this year.
Today’s the last lesson of hip-hop class … so sad that it has to end but I’ve certainly enjoyed myself through the past weeks and learnt many different stuffs from fellow dancers and trainers. It’s not only the dance moves, but the mindset and attitude are what that’s the greatest thing I’ve learnt there. The performance will be at Jurong Lake, Opening Ceremony at around 5 - 6pm. I’m gonna give my best shot!
During Character Education Program, Miss Lim said something about do we really know our friends at all? Something struck my mind, my friends are so complicated and everybody has a secret of their own. There is no point digging their secrets or inner personalities if they don’t want to show it!
However I must admit, I too, is a alter-ego boy who doesn’t show my other sides unnecessary.
In class, I’m a optimistic bastard who don’t give a damn about others’ willingness. At the end of the day, I just don’t like to show my concern and affection to my classmates. They just won’t appreciate the fact that I’d care for every single thing, so I rather keep those concerns in my heart. To sum this up, I conceal my true emotions towards people and things.
Despite the alter-egos, there are some aspects that doesn’t change. I still prefer to depend on myself, learn everything that comes to me, think and consider everything and communicate.
So she said it seems that we don’t know of friends in-depth, and I know she’s referring to our class. Come’on, it’s not like my classmates are my friends or closer links, there is a strong sense of hatred towards a few parties and that is mutual. The friend of my foe is my foe, that simple quotation could briefly describe why the class ain’t united at all. I wouldn’t really wish to know more about them … some are just too disgusted already of the impression they are giving.
Yes, one may argue that they’re actually acting only. Heck, it’s that attitude they’re giving every second spent in the class. From the look of their eyes, it’s quite clear of what message they try to deliver to me.
If only we could trust each other to accept the true side of us … things would have been much easier to not act everytime the situation changes.
Another year older, and I can’t believe in a seemingly shot period of time, I got to eat my birthday cake again. Time sure does flies … So much things have happened between the last March 23rd and this one, but some are just ain’t worth reminiscing about.
I have forgotten about my last year’s birthday wish, but this year is kind of dumb. I don’t really believe that what I wish will definitely come true, cause hard work is the only way to get what I wished for. And between now and then, I’ll just keep walking until I see her the way I should again.
Anyways, this year’s birthday bash was no doubt a death penalty compared to last year’s … oh my, those guys have sure grown up physically. I presented a story I wrote for chinese presentation today, pretty touching in my own opinions but I’m not certain about my classmates since they don’t really appreciate romantic ideas. Got a 13/15 score … not bad huh?
Today we talked about Sex & Sexuality during CEP (Character Education Program) and those information provided are generally useless when you already know them. From the way I see how my teacher phrase and interpret facts, it’s clearly obvious that she hasn’t really gone in-depth for the philosophic ideas she suggested. I shall talk about this issue in another post (’cause I really have things that I would love to express in my own point of view).
Dance Pratice was quite empty, for the fact that most people did not turn up. There were only like, 6 of us excluding the trainers?!? Man, and when those late-comers turn up at 5.00pm, which was near end of the whole lesson, they actually turn their back and walk off! Initially I had no idea of what was happening since I was obsessed with getting my moves smooth in front of the mirror. Later, I learnt that those girls were not happy since they are not told to pratice dance steps but hey, they were late and the worse part is that, they actully left without notice!
That’s what I find irritable, you can’t just walk off without any explaination. They were already in the wrong and now, they are just showing disrespect. I don’t think this should be the attitude dancers should have, and it applies to daily life too. Without clarification and jumping to such unreasonable conclusions, they’re obviously in the wrong. Why can’t people just sit down and talk peacefully, at least you can clarify each other’s doubts and not just leave with doubts!
Whatever it is, I’m very (very-very-very) tired mentally … not enough sleep last night and been using my intuitions/brain power too much.
Against my will, I crawled up from my comfy bed and dragged myself to school. It’s school, yes, but it’s not the school that freaks me out … it’s the classes. I could have slept through all classes but my pen stuck onto my hand, forcing me to scribble and sketch stuffs throughout the day. I skipped recess, and that’s something worth noting as I love food.
I’m just too lazy to walk back and forth, so I’d rather sleep in class.
Chinese teacher was absent, well … it doesn’t really make a difference if she comes or she doesn’t, the class is still fooling around regardless of her presence. I was sitting there debating with christian friends in my class, on the topic of preacers. I’m doing that because I need differet viewpoints for my english project pre-research.
And oh my, they are sure defensive.
Mathematics class, don’t even want to think of it. We were learning about remainders and I posted a question to Mr. Liew, “why do we learn remainder for?”. Guess what, he gave me a “how am i supposed to know” look and there I was, wondering if there’s anyday I would use it (for that I would not consider Engineering as my future career).
There was a trip to SP again, this time for a engineering course talk about global warming and energy conversion. When our bus entered the school compound, we stopped at one of the front porches and the driver opened the back door, thinking we’re alighting but nope, the teacher told him to move ahead.
Sure, and when we look at the backseats, many guys were like, vanished?!? They actually alighted at the previous spot and Gabriel took the lead for that … what a chairperson he is. It reminds me of a Jack Neo’s movie - Homerun. The talk is okay, they are telling me what I already knew.
Back to school (again) for drama CCA, requested to write another script and by now, I’ve completed the idea draft. I’m gonna take it straight to Miss Chee and get her to review my idea, so I can write my script safely.
The short break has come to an end, what a pity, it’s going to be days returning to my pathetic class. The sickest thing that could happen in class is to work with undesirable people, as it would either be them who would shut up or me to keep my mouth zipped. Either way, the “impartial” teacher will come to confront us after all.
I’m cracking my head, thanks to the mathematics holiday assignment. The other homeworks were easy stuffs, barely an hour and that’s it. BUT, mathematics … good’s grief, there is no alternate answers or what-so-ever. And, I think among all subjects, additional mathematics would be my most poorly scored subject.
That Gabriel is still asking me why I didn’t went to that BBQ a few days ago, which was actually hosted by Miss Lim, my form teacher. I bet she’s clueless about the “either us or them” hint, I’m already sick of seeing those people in school and do I have to puke even in the holidays? I rather go entertain people in the old folk’s home (which is so meaningful) than to attend such “incorrigible” BBQ.
And yes, I heard from my former class people that the BBQ sucks big time, a big bummer. Maybe those ex-e2 people should be glad I didn’t go, for that I would ruin the party if I find their attitude unpleasing.
And so what I did during this holiday (short-break):
- A session of Gift of Reading
- Dinner with ZK, ET and Cazua
- Bought BoA’s OUTGROW album
- Roamed the streets of Orchard 2 times (Wed, Thurs)
- Watched Mad Hot Ballroom at Lido with dance club people
- Bought 2 comic books (Return of the condor heroes)
- Started 2E1 site redesign
- Wrote 1 poem
- Did my homework
