I think time passes by fast, so fast that I hardly noticed:
- August = tomorrow
- Class/CCA photoshots are within this week
- Common test is barely 3 weeks away
- So is the final-year examination coming close
Up til now, I still have much tasks that haven’t been complete. My priority would be … the cultural night script. I’m inspiration-stuck, but thanks to Sianglin & Darren who are managing the teachers’ day skit (and they’re doing great), I have one burden off my shoulders.
It was a energetic start for me today, because it was raining. I love rain, it is just such a romantic atmosphere. Okay, not really romantic if I’m stuck in the rain and late for school. As it drizzled in the morning while I was on my way to school, listening to You & I Both by Jason Mraz really made my mood much better.
No assembly, awesome. I think it is fated to have my book confiscated during social studies lesson, it is the 2nd time in a row. I was merely copying my answers from paper to book (english assignment) and yea, she took them away. I got full marks for my question 1B, highest inferential marks! And for 1A, I missed that question out so I end up getting 0 for 1A.
Mr. Liew was fuming with anger again, our class noise level was beyond redemption. I still wonder why being the so-called top classes always receieve much critics.
We had english presentation today and the videos look okay, everyone have their own good points. Some that I would like to highlight would be Siang Lin’s group, the footage was like, wow, how they actually to shoot the kids in kindergarden taking their temperatures and such. Another would be Andy’s group, just a perfect balance of quality and quantity (I won’t want to go into details here, or else it will be so~ long-winded).
During IT lesson, as usual, the first application I opened was Pinball. Deciding that it was too childish to play, I logged into Neopets. I lost to Cazua’s pet! Agrh.
We had a ice-breaking session for those who are not involved in the teachers’ day script, just to get ou club closer together. For today, Miss Chee is busy with the Speak good english skit group, Sianglin (& later, Darren) with the Teachers’ day skit group and me, in-charge of the hey! we are free! group. I managed to remember all of their names this time round, in the expense of Gabriel who will have his forfeit next week for not remembering names.
I had a nice day, just sitting back and relax all day while doing what I’m assigned to. I better sleep early because there’s class photo-taking session tomorrow!
After a few weeks of practice, the day is finally here. I reached school at around 2.05PM with Wengling and it was a rainy day, Wengling hair look so scary and messy! The girls were already waiting by the study corner and I just sat down beside Weiheng while the girls are … appreciating their costumes?
We had to stay around the study corner and later, the canteen because nearly all rooms in school were locked! We waited and waited until 3PM, got on the bus and away to Fort Canning Centre!
Some girls were uhm, frightened by Fort Canning because it is July? I nearly got hit my the bus and it was just an inch away! Phew, I guess I got lucky there. As we walk uphill, we look like a tour group instead of a dance group!
The stage was outdoor and was so grand froma view far away, and we rehearsed 1 time without music, 4 times with music. Haowei-laoshi got a little fedup when we still can’t have that burst of energy in us. My shirt was covered with sweat and had to remove for drying prupose. And then … it is makeup time!
First I meddled with my hair, and then Yipbei helped me out with most of the cosmetics stuff since I don’t know much about making up.
I had 5 handful of wax over my hair, 5 - 7 times of hair spray and the result was a rock solid hair. A bombastic one, and with Wengling doing the final touchup on my eye shadows, I really became a living dead.
After the makeup was done, I helped Weiheng with his movements, especially the couple dance! During practices, he fell 90% of the time when Peixuan went up, and until today I finally know why … his horse stance is wrong! Oh well, I guess things will eventually come to a good end on stage.
6.35PM, time to dance!
I was so lucky to not make any mistakes during the dance, except that I lost concentration during the couple dance and Wengling nearly slipped, but I quickly grabbed her tighter to conceal that error. Peixuan say that Weiheng still a little unstable, but it all went well after all 
We took some photographs and I went off with Xinyi to Andy’s birthday at West Coast Park!
The guys were shocked when they saw my makeup upon my arrival. It was halloween coming early for them. The 1st thing I did was grab the mee-goreng after my greetings and guess what, a group of guys playing PSP in the park. It’s like spoiling the ambience …
The sausages were amazing ‘cooked’, the top part is burnt, the middle part is normal, the bottom part is uncooked. Tri-flavors? I love the BBQed fish, tasty! Yew Choong was acting like Hard Fay, shaking his butt all over …
Andy was ‘escorted’ on the shoulders of the mighty guy, with me as the cameraman. I used Edward’s camera so yea, the photos are with him. He was served a cake right into his face but yea, no real bashing up even though Ze Yi, Zhi Kai & Hong Yong were there.
I had a hard time removing my makeup in the washroom, and I made Cazua, Edward & Ryan waited so long outside We went off at around 10PM, though Dominic & Shawn came at 9.45PM … haha.
What a day, filled with fun everywhere … I feel so happy.
Sometimes I do wonder, why do I feel so ‘cramped’ … I am not facing financial problems, Studies ain’t a problem for me, I love my CCAs, I have got great friends, my family is cool, but why is it that I just feel … stressed? Not that kinda stress which you have your hands running over the head, but it just makes the heart beats faster - so fast, that I start to feel so small.
Maybe I know why, but maybe it is not. It has been long, and I know it is meaningless, nothing will change, it will stay this way on and on, unless I … let go. But does letting go means able to forget all of it, what does let go means, how do I do it, I don’t know, lost, stuck, it’s stupid.
If I knew why I had this feeling for her from the start, perhaps I knew how to end. Yet I don’t. It will still remain the same … 1 year, 2 year, even a few years later, this won’t be mutual, I’m just useless after all. I don’t know how to act ‘popular’ to girls or those kind of guys who change themselve so that they become a girl-magnet … is it just wrong to be me?
I haven’t wrote stuffs like that for sometime but I guess I’m just getting more tense regarding emotions these days … I guess I’m just stressed out.
What can I do,
What can I say?
Where do you want me,
In a world packed of lies,
Taking everything lying down and just keep shut?
Have you asked yourself,
Does everybody stay the same forever,
Can any man ever promise innocence that will never go?
I looked in the mirror before,
I knew that I was misbehaving even when I have to fall,
But now that I have been taught so much,
I have learnt that much,
Sophisticated incidents have shaped the man I am,
And you want to reshape this man before you …
Do you think it is fair?
I just want to talk to you,
Just like when we spoke for the first time,
Now … we don’t talk much anymore.
You seen how much I have changed,
Yet you don’t see how I have changed all this time,
And you claim that its not what you wanted,
What do you want me to do …
How is a man suppose to change?
When you don’t set a good example … don’t blame others for following your footsteps.
Our chinese teacher claimed that she lost her voice, okay, it is real but kudos to her, for being able to tell stories (which I don’t think is related to the lesson) and guess what, the warning sent to us before lesson started was: I have a bad throat today, talk and get thrown out. Man, and if don’t go on with her little ghost stories, I could have given her that respect she wants but I guess it all went to waste.
Drama canceled today, this brighten up my day a little.
Andy finally flared up and roared during the mathematics test, as the class was filled with disturbing noises started by a group of ‘friendly’ classmates seating near the backdoor. Just to note, there was no teacher around as Mr. Liew had to go get the O’ level oral papers.
I guess the anti-bamboo campaign has finally started, thanks to our dear impartial Gabriel. His MSN nickname reads:
WHO ARE u to SCOLD EX-2E1 boys ……….your character suck ! GO n DO some R-E-F- L-E-C-T-I-O-N !
He’s taking a stand against his crush, I was so amazed … he doesn’t seem so much of this kind of man (I just can’t find the right words to describe him now). In case you might be wondering why this campaign started ,it is due to her whines in the classroom and the MSN nickname that she has put up.
Boys of previous e1s suck … (P.s. only 3e1 and 3e2 de) - Disgusting filth, look into the mirror, cox u’re not the king, soccer spats
