Today is the teacher’s day celebration and it is puppet dance time again! Reported at school by 7am which was like so early, because the reporting time for Thursday is 8.30am. So hateful to wake up like that.
The drama was okay overall, would have been better if the stage was well-equiped. It was not only the actors that made my script came alive, but Darren & Sianglin, my trusted directors for this play as well.
The first dance performance for the lower-secondary was a little screwed up when Weiheng did a very obvious mistake, forgetting the steps. During the second performance, I nearly fell off-stage but quickly improvise the situation and balance well, before making a fool of myself.
After the performances, I recieved many comments from teachers and friends. Most of the remarks were like … “Damien! I didn’t knew you can dance that well” (Miss Lee said this) and “You really damn energetic” and such. Later in the canteen where I met Mr. Chia, he said “can see that you’re really into dance”. I was like saying thanks to everybody who gave critics because I don’t know what else to say.
Then I rushed home, changed into a new outfit and went off to meet my primary school friends. Jennifer looks much more matured and taller, Monyee looks … fatter? Oh well, Carina is still the shortest of all. Zheng Wai, Daniel, Zheng Wai and Amos didn’t change much, except we all grew taller now. Victor is still the same, a little perveted with a touch of mischievousness. Dex looks like a total gangster now, so much different from how he looked 3 years back.
Miss Goh was not around as she went home already, so we just explored the temporary school for a while before dismissing ourselve. I had to return to school for dance even though I wanted to hang out as well.
Sean’s first try at dance was funny to look at. I can see he’s really putting in his best and man, I am so happy. Huang-laoshi told me that he will ask Mrs. Lim to enter my name for his dance troope enrollment for next year’s batch and I was like, HURRAY! Maybe next year is a busy year but I will have to try my best to manage my time.
Teacher’s Day Message to … Miss Lim!
Well, she was my form teacher during secondary one (now as well) and she is those type of over-caring teacher. Maybe because she is in St. John, that is why shee is always the first to arrive when help is needed. She always thinks that I do too much, worry too much, think too much, waste too much, play too much and etc.
She’s the teacher who showed me what caring for others is all about.
Seriously, I still wonder who told her about my crush.
Morning & Afternoon
Went on to JP with Ryan, Sean and Cazua for breakfast but since it was just 10am, we walked around before settling down at KFC. Only now I realised putting on braces was so expensive as Ryan had his braces on recently.
We had alot of fun in Toy ‘R Us later as I played with the barney hand puppet. We’re laughing like kids (grown-up ones) and yea, it was so enjoyable. We then went home at around near 1pm as I need to take a rest before going out again in the evening for watching a dance concert.
Evening
I arrived at City Hall MRT station at 7pm, waited til 7.30pm before Mrs. Lim came and we were rushing like hell since it starts at 8. During the concert, I was really fed-up with that 2 good-for-nothings sitting beside. Don’t they know what it means to respect? I don’t really see the point of their presence there when they just can’t appreciate art and just doing their bastardy stuffs there. Fuckers.
The dance was nice, but I prefer the more traditional performances. The guys were simply awesome, and inspiring. I accidentally felt the beat and moved my legs a little while they were dancing! I don’t wanna watch that performance again … really, because I want to be performing on that stage with them the next time.
Emotions
How do I describe it … I wonder. I just felt like a failure, like stabs into my consciences for being unable to do what my heart tells me to. Perhaps, I’m just weak from the start. Maybe, all I can do is just … watch.
Tonight the lion’s heart had slept, but the cries of the lonewolf awaken that sense in me … tonight, tears were shed again. I don’t know how to put it but, I just can’t say goodbye, and the words I really want to say is … “sorry”.
So here is a poem I composed … just telling what I feel now.
A sigh of sorrow,
for a love that seem shallow,
awakened the cries of the lonely wolf,
melancholic expressions accumulated through time.
A love nobody approved,
only memories of sadness remind,
of that passion and dedication,
despite knowing it was just my fantasy.
A girl who was a fatal fascination,
destinated to love me but not in reality,
there might be a million guys before me,
but there shall be no deviousness for any guys after me.
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Today’s Horoscope
Whatever alienation you may feel is part of your way to create walls around your emotional castle. Honor your need to make it real, but don’t overreact or isolate yourself from loved ones
When you read them after the day is over … they just seem spot-on … but too late, really … really.
People, from friends to teachers and parents, will always have this piece of advice for me: “Damien, don’t think so much!”
Those who hang with me will know, I speak faster than I think. Yet, I think deeper than I should. Sounds like a contradiction? Perhaps, and because of this unlikely opinion (well, in my point of view), there are high chances of I say, then regret in a minute.
Like today, when Mr. Wong asked a question during class, I answered without thinking through but when he asked for reason, the explanation seems like attached to my mind already. It was a question regarding accounting concepts, as if the going-concern concept affects the business for bad debts. I was like, the going-concern concept states that we assume the company will be ever-lasting. Then we think about a situation if somebody doesn’t pay and therefore, profit is overstated. So then you assume heck care, lets forget about that debt and just continue with the business. Unknowingly, as you have overstated your profit, the assumption of such small sum of money means nothing and just keep forgetting about them which may in turn add up to a huge sum. Thus, a big loss and may cause company to fall.
Okay, that seem a little too much and that was the explanation I thought of in barely … 10 seconds? It sounds absurd but well, it is still a possible case :/ We shouldn’t ignore possibilities, right?
Lately have been thinking about nostalgic stuffs that drives me away from the common test revisions. I decide to list them out just to see what kind of distractions they might be.
Dance
Oh yes, dance, sweet. I am practising my dance steps (chinese dance) every one or two days at home, in the evening. Not that I’m scared to be scolded for forgetting my steps, but in fact, I can remember all of them already, it is just that I wanna have a better feel of the steps.
Ballroom dances are really on my mind now, and I really wanna pick one of them up. I love Rumba as the moves are like, wow, exaggerating! Okay, its a little sensual but hey, its a dance after all. A little test over at Tickle suggest that Tango suits me, I wonder.
And I still don’t understand how come some guys in my schools insist that dance is for girls only. Hateful, really, but I’m gonna continue dancing anyway.
Final Fantasy
Something I like about the series is that, the romance in the stories will be so memorable. Particularly FFVIII, since I love the Squall & Rinoa story so much. So much, that I listen to Eyes on Me nearly everyday, and the events of the story will be reminded. Now, I have the urge to replay FFVIII, and FFIX.
Drama
Inspirations keep striking me everyday. And for that, I have to amend my plot everyday as well. I’ll start scripting once the common test is ending.
Under the influence of Edward, so got me taking the tests at Tickle, I’ve took some of the tests he took and posted my results here.
Damien, the best match for your personality is Virgo
Virgo, the Virgin (August 23 to September 23): This intelligent and diligent partner is just your type. Initially, a Virgo may catch your eye with their put-together look and attention to the details of your courtship. But as you get to know them better, you’re even more likely to be drawn to your Virgo’s strong convictions and practical nature.
Damien, when you reveal your true colors in love, you’re a Sensual Partner
You’re looking for a loyal love who can share your dreams and fantasies — both in and out of the bedroom. In fact, your greatest desire may be to share your intimate life with another person who can truly appreciate your sensual world. Because sex and sensuality are such valued parts of your life, these things are likely non-negotiables when it comes to finding a life partner. You’re also looking for the kind of person who will value success and appreciate the finer things in life.
Damien, you find love in a Fairy Tale
Glass slippers, traveling minstrels, knights in shining armor. These are some of the classic components of fairy tales. And when it comes to your real-life love life, you’ll take ‘em in the form of candy and flowers, poems describing your beauty, tiny velvet boxes, and the like. Whether you are single or settled, you’re a firm believer that the fairy tale shouldn’t end when someone is carried over the threshold (though that’s a pretty fun part, too).
You sometimes have to work to get your head out of the clouds, but your optimistic spirit and love-conquers-all attitude helps you deal with the good and bad that life might throw your way. As long as you can spot a poison apple when it knocks on your door, you’ll always be able to find your happy ending.
Damien, your relationship color is Yellow
This means that you tend to be an agreeable partner who possesses both flexibility and a knack for compromise. Above all, you appear to make a real effort to keep things positive between you and the one you love. In fact, there are many times when you may feel that it’s better to downplay problems rather than talk about them endlessly. This can be especially true when you and your partner hit on a tough issue that you don’t think the two of you can reach agreement on. After all, there are so many positive, happy things to enjoy in a relationship that you probably feel it’s a waste of time to dwell on the negative.
