Melanie was a busy-bee today, collecting the PW files by 12 noon while many were still dating the printing machines =) 辛苦了！
Economics test really sucked, not enough time for me to really do it well. And doing test papers in the lecture hall really is… one hell of many situations.
I was kinda disappointed with my results for Maths and Chinese. 70% for maths and 51.5% for chinese (OMFG). Well, some of our class people score really well (grr, the straight As) and some of us don’t. Everybody just buck up, alright? Still a long-road ahead, no point giving up now.
West Zone Camp, anybody game for it? 22nd to 24th May.
Bus rides back home can be so long. These days I have been asking myself questions. I bet I am not the only one. Sometimes you look at the people around you, be it friends or strangers, hasn’t there been moments you like like, “man, what I am ever good at?”
That’s when I begin to wonder what I can achieve. Seems like nothing, all the while. Maybe there are times I end up ahead of some others, but I am never always in the position. Perhaps in the first place, I never had an advantage at all, it was an illusion.
Its stuffs like that which makes demoralization happen very easily.
Okay, boring weekend, that’s why no updates.
I was busying purging spam comments from my blog and lost some non-spam ones in the progress, argh.
The weekend is all about physics and mathematics. And PI (Project Work), omg, thanks Miss Chan so much! She totally pwned -censored-! I think it has to do with impressions, since “she is a nice teacher” is an impression I had of her after this one month. If I compare, then she will be the better teacher =)
I bet everyone in JC1 is more or less rushing their PIs or done with them already. Wonder how Dominic and the others in their respective JCs are doing, should be kinda fun when we talk about it the next time we meet. Perhaps when we go back to YCSS to take our testimonials and certificates, that’s when.
Just earlier tonight, I realized something between my sister and I when she came into my room and said goodnight. She would always give me a kiss on the cheek and say goodnight, and I used to do the same. But when I did today, I came to realized, it has been weeks since I did the same. Gawd. And we haven’t been talking much either.
School is not an excuse. Perhaps it is just me =/
There’s gonna be squash retrials on Monday, so… yea, one last chance to get into the team. Despite of how it will turn out, I’ll still be holding on to my racquet and loiter in the squash court =)
Depressing week, lost this lost that, all my dearest stuffs. Haiz. Damn bag.
On the brighter side, we scored 50/60 for economics written assignment project, highest in class 
For GP, I scored 50 too, as in, 50%… just passed ;/ So many tests in the following weeks, gawd.
Laws in 08S22 were laid down today, and the verdict was passed down for Jerry and Samuel - Handphone confiscated over the weekend. And the chemistry people had 3 hours of chemistry instead of 1 hour, omg. They looked damn shagged when I woke up from my sleep during that long break which they should have had. Keilian.
Monday will either break me or satisfy me. Hope luck is on my side.
Bad morning. Dr. Gan dragged me out to talk.
Somethings I wanted to avoid, and if saying doesn’t make anything better, why do.
If it is beyond my control, turning to somebody else’s authority to suppress the crowd is like telling a tale.
Especially when it’s individuals in the crowd, not the crowd itself.
And those things, I don’t even understand it myself,
I get weak.
Failed physics test last week, makes me scared.
Failed squash trials yesterday, makes me scared and motivated.
Failed to contribute to today’s history class presentation, makes me feel bad.
Failed to place responsibility on the right people, makes me cynical.
Succeeded in getting more people’s shit to settle, I’m worn out.
Prison gates won’t open up for me
On these hands and knees I’m crawlin’
Oh, I reach for you
Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’, I’m fallin’- Savin’ Me / Nickelback
