Mock Paper. It’s meant to mock you, man.
“Did well? Big deal. It doesn’t count, biaaatch! Imma MOCK paper!”
Screw it. But I know I’m just gonna get some pretty average marks. Well, the least is that I know which topics I need to practice more! And the morning was pretty… cool. It was raining. And I reached the school 30 minutes late.
Damien came in 30minutes late.
Amir came in 1hour late.
Shawn came in 1h30minutes late.
We rock. And the fact was that I forgot about the test when I woke up, until I saw the notification on my phone. Gheez.
WR WR WR WR. Pain in the neck. Graded ME (Meeting Expectations) for now, EE (Exceeding Expectations)… I’m anticipating that! I’m such a neat-freak when it comes to documents =/
You just need to blow it, and it will be equivalent to a 8.1 earthquake.
As in… the degree of destruction!
Shucks, Dr. Gan advised me to blog less. Well, guess that’s reasonable enough when I consider my results. But I haven’t posted in the past 3 days, haven’t I?
When you do something wrong, what do you do? The lowest level of reaction would be to be empathic and be glad to derive pleasure from the suffering of others. Felt darn bad when I heard that PY didn’t managed to get what he wanted cause we cut queue. Sorry bro!
And it is very easy to see the colors of people when such things happen. Some feel guilty, some don’t. Some feel real terrible and wanted to do something, some just kept silent and felt bad inside, and some just… haiz. Gawd.
Ever had this feeling that everyone has something much better than you when inside a room? That is what I feel whenever I step into class. Gotta work extra hard for promos!
No man is exempt from saying silly things; the mischief is to say them deliberately.
- Michel de Montaigne
This Monday was almost very good. Well actually, this is the first Monday of a school term that I don’t feel term. Oh, and Happy Birthday Kaiyan! (Zzz, hope she don’t mind that present)
So why is it almost very good? It would have been better if:
Our economics teacher is not the economics teacher I am having now! Curse it.
I think my classmates would agree on this: this is the first time we felt that our economics teacher should be changed. Let’s take the time machine and review this awful comparison:
2nd Week of 2nd School Term: Miss Chew took our class for the first time, replacing Mr. Tan
(She was a new teacher, so its pretty doubtful. But she turned out to be awesome!)Before June Holidays: Miss Chew had to leave, Mr. Tan replaces her.
(Duh, we loved her okay. But Mr Tan is… wow.)
And yes, this time it really sucks to the core. Maybe she is full of knowledge of economics. Maybe she can explain things well. Maybe she holds a wow-degree. I dunno, but those factors don’t contribute to my dismay towards her. She simply cannot relate to us in the right way. OMG I have to include the SMS she sent to us:
O8s22.i hve checkd wif è gp pp tat u did nt go 4 lect on fri neither did u come 4 econ compulsory make up.hence i wil take u as awol n u wil b heavily punishd in terms of active participatn.unless u can give me a valid reason by 2day.è gp lect oso end by 5:15 n there was no reason u cud nt go 4 both.i hope this is è last time if nt i wil submit ur names 2 è general off.make sure u get è model ans frm s25 too.ms law
Kinda unreadable but bear with it
I don’t see why we have to conform to her burning desire to hold a make-up class in the very last minute, and reject all our plans for the day.
I don’t see why we should have make-up class when she wasted a good 1 period of class during curriculum time getting us to nowhere.
I don’t see why we should explain ourselves for not being there for the make-up class when it was obvious enough.
And most of all, I don’t see her eye to eye.
My resolve? My interest in economics will have nothing to do with her. I will work hard to do well, to compensate for the fact that I don’t have a economics teacher (in my reality).
I remembered Jocelyn telling me that she might have googled for blogs that wrote about her. Well, when Jocelyn thought that I should not write about her just in case she may see, it doesn’t matter. I would have told her these anyways if she opened her ears and be open to critics for even half-a-minute.
It is still a busy week, so I will strike her off until then =)
Oh yes, I am blunt about this, big deal. I believe in freedom of speech.
Shawn’s proposed class outing: 1/6 Attendance is the highlight of the day. There was this exchange of conversation while on our way home:
Carina: (Saw Fred and I by coincidence) You 2 go out?
Me: Class Outing
Carina: (Sees Munkit) 3 people only?
Me: No, 4.
Four of us went to watch “Get Smart.” We were late for the movie by a tiny little bit because of… camwhoring.
Winifred! In High School Musical 3!
Melissa! Gawd, why is she messing with Zohar’s XXXX?!
Munkit! Thinks that the panda ain’t that intimating.
Damien! Don’t understand why Eddie Murphy is with Anne Hathaway =/
Panda lovers =)
Panda’s disciples =)
The movie was okay, laugh a little here and there. Anne Hathaway is hot. Squeeze my lemon is a fun line! And yes, we were pangseh by the organizer… Shawn! I’m gonna squeeze his head.
That was how we spent our youth day =)
I have alot of things I want to say. For a moment, I wanted to lock this post with a password because it may sound too personal. First, the O levels result. I did not fare well but I am satisfied. I did not meet certain expectations for subjects but I managed to do better in some. So when I balanced it out, I have no reasons to be angst.
Yesterday while we were waiting for results, and when the Principal is practically saying meaningless things to us (since result slip was more significant than the future of our secondary school for us), I felt really scared. I was so right that I’m the type who will only be nervous on the day itself. I was so scared that I nearly cried. Scared of? Not getting into JJC, and I meant it.
The presentation slides nearly freaked me out. Or rather, it really scared the wits out of me. 30~% of the graduating population are eligible for JC. The top student (Attiqah) only scored 11 points. It’s a good result but it also mean that, all others would get more than 13 points. And considering that 30%, it means I can be one of those who will get >20.
At times like this, I want something to believe in. Not religion, but something or someone I can rely on.
When I saw my result, I am very glad. Glad because I can go JJC. Why JJC and not a college more prestigious? That is a question people may ask. The thing that sets JCs apart is the history. Surely I can aim for a top notch JC like the ‘bishan JC’ and get in there. But can I maintain the standard set by the school? Will I really enjoy myself there? Will I be saying about my 2 years in JC in 10 years time, that “all I ever did there was mug like mad with my friends?” I really don’t wish to have such plain memories. I rather be involved in group activities, and struggle through J1 with my friends and say “man, that 2 years was filled with so much fun that I can’t finish saying a quarter of it.”
Does top-notch JC necessary mean that you will have a brighter future? Brighter future means what to you. Scoring As in a mugger compound? Or spending your time as happy as you will ever be? Think about it.
That is my kind of life.
To my friends or people who scored results that can’t get you to where you wanna go, I can only tell you that you should cherish your next best alternative. Feeling sad is a definite thing but it is not the end of life. Work hard in wherever you go, who knows what treasure you may uncover on a unexpected journey? People who can’t get back to the college they went during PAE, you should try approaching the teachers or staffs and seek their opinions.
But the saddest thing is when your friends and you are separated. This is why I concluded that the day after results release is damn sad. Some will say they are going, some say not sure, and they sum up to a chance that “we may not be schoolmates anymore.” Wanqing was the first who told me that even if that happens, we can still keep in contact and stay the same. True, really. But my mind can’t help but to think that communication will not be so personal again. The kind of relationship will be very different somehow.
So that’s basically all the ranting/lashing paragraphs
Today we (the shadows) did the ushering for the *zzz, forgot the name, is C—” event. Was supposed to be at reception but Hyati had cramps so we exchanged duties. Darn bored, but its okay, no big deal since everyone should be feeling the same way. Mainly I directed people to washrooms… is it that hard to find? I only dropped my smile and enthusiasm at 2.50PM, when the ushering duties were over. Keeping that smile was a strain, man.
Then mass dance! Lots of stuffs cocked-up during the MC-ing due to unforeseen circumstances. Was lectured during debrief and I felt I could have done so much better. If any SCDC members is reading this, I was not blaming you earlier when I talked to you guys after debrief. I just felt the need to discuss such problems so we can get thru this the next time! Sorry if my intention was misread but I really loved working with all of you. During the mass dance, they were dancing along and I can see the support. Wendy and Sheena were video-ing down so practice will be easier when seniors are not around. I really appreciate all that… really.
I scratched Cheri like 2 times today cause of my fingernails (I kept them to strum). Cheri had to tolerate my enthusiasm and all that so I’m quite sorry for that. So now, I have cut it even though she didn’t say a thing cause it’s kinda bad, you know? She’s a great dance partner, and I would say its like dancing with Evans/Christina (who are great mass-dance seniors!) So we learnt: Let’s Twist Again, Pop Ye Ye, Rock Around the Clock. OGLs only learnt the last 2 I mentioned.
I can’t wait for the next practices.
And today is Egoh (Elaine Goh)’s birthday! Played with cake, damn. The chocolate got into my ears and I only realized it after I took out my earphones on the bus.
