So yesterday. (0.5)4E1 with Mr. Liew! Took him really long to accept our gift but we did it anyways.
On the darker side of the evening…
Sometimes it seemed that the class is always torn into 2 whenever we go out. If I divide the class according to cliques, there will be quite a few. 2 to 3 of the 5 to 6 will be pretty sporting. Statistics would be really cruel if I identify, but I’m gonna do it anyways:
3 will take the lead almost every time (Xueli, Cazua, Andy).
The Garfield gang (6) will support (Gabriel, JJ, Weixiang, Chikai etc.)
7 will look at their mood.
10 will go depending on the 7 (its a chain reaction).
2 or 3 are outcasts, so forget it.
About 10 will never attend.
The reason why I am making such assumptions? … I am kind of pissed (if that is the correct word to use).
Some grown-ups can be pretty childish. This middle-aged woman who crashed onto us, said hello. Of course, in a angst manner but what the heck. After 2 minutes, she came walking to us and demanded an apology from Cazua who has already said so. What a biaaaatch.
Now this is a pretty long post for quite a while.
So today! 3 hours of economics makeup class, and only went through 1 full question (2 parts). Doing the math, it will be 1.5h for one part of a question, and 15 minutes for each paragraph.
My morning could have been better than this =(
And have you read yesterday’s news?
Sec 4 student, 16, takes brother’s car out for a drive, loses control and slams into a tree.
It is tragic, but in corner of my mind, I would say stupid. Age restrictions exist for a reason, and taking such risks a month before O’ levels is just suicidal. It isn’t that hard to wait another 2 years, no? I think even people of our age can be this stupid to take such risks. So conclusion? Act like your age.
No hope, no glory, no happy ending.
I shall declare that I hate plans on Fridays. I think I’ve experienced enough to say this for myself.
Honestly, I was reluctant to head out this evening for class-outing. But I’d hate to pangseh the remaining few. And so I went. Had fun? Yes.
With that all said and done, I’ll not go on another class outing. Reason? I really detest last minute decisions. To the core. And I felt that one too many times ever since secondary school (?) days. I may take that line back, but definitely not today, not tomorrow, not soon. I’m sorry I cannot be like Munkit, who still perseveres even though he has been pangseh so many times.
I want to smile! =( If studies can keep me distracted, I will study til I’m headed for a breakdown. At least it keeps me occupied from thinking about things.
You don’t have the time, and I don’t have the reason.
Such news makes me feel that Singaporeans are quite affected by the effects of modernization. Violence due to lack of tolerance. Kinda pathetic to see lives gone for stupid reasons like this.
Very tiring day, didn’t really sleep well last night cause of the blister on my foot. I think it gets irritating sometimes when things go overboard. ‘Studied well, don’t mean can teach well’ is really a nice line to conclude the morning I had.
If a student don’t understand, it may be his fault, but teach him.
If a student fails his test, it may be his fault, but understand that he tried, and his work is not crap.
If a teacher don’t have the patience to teach, hand the job to someone else then.
Even if a teacher had all the time in the world to teach, but lack patience and positiveness,
Understand that it is just not the right career and nothing more.
Nothing less.
Class T-shirt… I dunno what people think, but I think it is just something to symbolize a class. Why so superficial? I dunno who the hell said that my sec-4 class-t looked like rag, but I wear it out pretty often anyways. The meaning it holds is more than how it looks.
I am… getting pretty good with the understanding of ‘indirect-confrontation’ these days =)
Happy 17th Birthday to Andy Leong and Wong Xueli!
Gheez, I remembered the consecutive BBQs I went last year, thanks to the both of them =)
It’s the way people make me feel. Like I will never be hurt or down.
Well, that just shows how well I have kept the things I don’t wanna show! (I guess)
I have alot of dilemmas, even when I can just tell the people around me that things are gonna be okay. Beneath this optimism, is a bunch of doubts and uncertainties.
I believe life has its ups and downs.
And I believe that even when it is down, life still has to go on.
In economics, a firm may earn normal profits in the long-run after suffering from deficit in the short-run.
In life, we may just bounce back. All we need is time.
I hate being in-between friends/cliques who kinda not like each other.
It puts me in a very difficult situation.
I don’t want to hurt either, so the best thing to do is to smile and laugh it away?
But what if I know it is wrong and I should speak up for the other?
This blows.
I think love is very simple; Either you like or don’t like the person.
But the complication comes in when you do.
If one gives, can the other accept?
If a feeling is not reciprocated, should one continue or just give up?
Should we take a gamble, that its either lovers or strangers,
As the awkwardness makes ‘being-friends’ very difficult?
So the question I asked myself in the very end is,
“do you know what you want?”
But there is no answer.
Pretense is inevitable as we grow up.
Lies. Lies. And lies.
They help us pull through everyday.
We try to smile even if we are sad.
And why the hell is sad associated with emo.
If somebody is truly sad, why judge him as emo?
It just makes people put on a mask,
cause we are so often judged and criticized.
If we take a little more time,
Stay and understand that somebody for a little more,
We may just see another side of him.
And that is him.
And I want to talk to you like we did before.
But suddenly. Just so suddenly.
What went wrong… let me know.
I think some things people do is simply delicious. In what sense? They entertain me! Good or bad, heck, as long as it is delicious (like junk food! you know it’s bad but you just can’t help it!)
Principal loves to talk in the morning. He dissolved the school basketball team just because of some dumb incident that happened yesterday. Come on, if a higher power is in a bad mood, quit bargaining/showing attitude and just tone down a little, apologize and let him have his way. Shouldn’t we all weight consequences before making decisions? Just b!tch it with friends later on, how difficult is that?
But if the principal seriously dissolve CCAs just because of the small things, we can remove the synthetic field soon. And the basketball courts. Then we build buildings there, become muggers, no more sports, hurray!
OMG and today, I witnessed how to kill cockroaches in the most efficient way. Use the canteen table legs to smash them! Freakin’ cool. 3 died this way, 1 was unknown death cause I didn’t saw that one.
Okay, so I shall move on to something that is not that delicious.
I think I am more demoralized than ever.
Promotion conditions, this was the topic for Civics class today. Minimum of 2 H2 passes, and 1 H1 pass to promote. Currently, I have failed physics and math common test. Economics, okay, I dunno yet. So I am probably gonna fail my term 3. But I’d hate to be retained, I’m kinda scared now. It probably doesn’t seem like I am scared but, it’s sad and true cause I really am. And it is not… just pass I am looking for. I don’t want a S, or U, or E. D would be okay, but I want Cs and Bs. But as the story goes, “what you give is what you receive,” and I don’t think I have put in enough effort to deserve them.
Strength, is what I have been wondering for a long time. What I am really good at? When I look around me, all the people I know have a specific strength, and is really good at something. Some are talented in drawing, some in music, some in games etc. It really bothers me when I think of what I will be able to achieve, especially when my studies are already like… shyt.
But beneath it all, I still believe that there’s some hope somewhere. And somehow, I hope I will get there. As for now, I have to mug for the physics lecture test tomorrow!
I remembered this quote from Ocean’s Eleven during class today, pretty random but hey!
Danny: Does he make you laugh?
Tess: At least he doesn’t make me cry.
